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Wednesday, August 17, 2050

So now that I have published a book, I feel like I am trying to merge two identities, and things might get a little confusing. So I want to have this post explain a little bit about what is going on for any new travelers to the squeaky world of Jess and Paula.

My name is Jessica Smith. I publish under a pen name of Paula Jean Ferri. The two names are interchangeable in my mind though. While I was born as Jessica, around the age of 17, I developed a new lifelong friend, who I affectionately call Paula. Her name is a little more searchable than mine is. Besides, I probably wouldn't have had anything to write about without her, so she became the author.

Feel free to wander the blog and discover a little more about Paula's antics. I am also on Medium writing as often as I can between my three outlets (books, blog and Medium). I would LOVE to hear more about you and any questions you may have. Please send an email to Paula@paulajeanferri.com.

Last, but CERTAINLY not least... I can't thank you enough for visiting!! I LOVE that you are here and hope to see more of you! Be sure to keep up to date on my website:


Social Butterfly

Wednesday, May 6, 2020

It's no secret that Paula loves people. Since the whole quarantine started, she has been pretty withdrawn, as I mentioned in my last post. But oh my goodness, does she love zoom meetings! Well, some of them anyway. Remember what a flirt Paula is? Most of my meetings are all with the women's empowerment organization I have recently aligned with. She can be very quiet during those.

However, my roommate had a zoom call with a few friends from work to make scones. Cool idea, and quite a few laughs, and it was great to eavesdrop and help around the kitchen. And oh boy, did Paula insist on showing up tonight. There may or may not have been a few good-looking guys that she works with. Such a show-off. She loves the limelight, especially when it gives her a chance to flirt a little. It's been a good balance for me most of the time. I am usually quite shy, so on occasion, I appreciate the help. Not sure my roommate appreciated it though.

Hide and Seek

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

Since developing Tourette syndrome, I have not really played hide and seek thanks to Paula basically shouting out anytime I try to hide. She's a terrible sport. However, since the start of COVID-19 and having to be quarantined, she might have changed her mind. We all know that Paula is a show-off and loves people. So with just my roommate at home with me (who is still working and not available most of the day), she is either trying to play with me or has gotten really depressed.

What I'm trying to say is that I haven't heard much of Paula as of late. For a while, I was worried she was disappearing and I was growing out of my TS. That can occasionally happen with children, but not typically at my stage of life. She will pop out every once in a while and I cry out, "There she is!" I'm just glad she is still around. I don't know what I would do without my Paula around!

Who Scared Who?

Monday, April 20, 2020

New people are always fun. During my last 2 weeks at my job, my company had a new hire named Jake. Poor Jake was walking down the aisle between desks in my department. I hadn't seen him yet, he was coming up behind me. He was quiet, and as he got closer, Paula screamed! I guess she got scared that he might be sneaking up on her or something. Of course, the poor guy jumped; a scream out of nowhere is not always pleasant. Especially since he was behind me still. I hadn't even seen him. As he paused, I told him he really shouldn't scare Paula like that. She is quite jumpy, you know...

Out to Lunch

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

This is actually a story that I have forgotten that my grandma told me today. I want to make sure this gets recorded for two reasons. 1. I like to record the stories so I don't forget them, which obviously happens. 2. This story addresses something very important in dealing with Tourette Syndrome.

There was one day that I was out to lunch with my brother, grandparents and two of my grandpa's siblings, Delone and Shirley. Grandma kept saying how funny Shirley's reaction was the first time she experienced my Tourette's. Grandma was trying to explain to her what was going on, but Aunt Shirley was just so flustered. Aunt Shirley doesn't like attention. Which just by being around me, she then had to deal with.

Here's the thing, I used to be the exact same way. I was the shy kid that spend all of my time reading books. In middle school/early high school, if you asked me a direct question, I likely would have just nodded or shook my head in response. I didn't have many friends because I didn't know how to talk to people. I know all too well what Aunt Shirley was feeling. Lucky for her, we don't spend too much time together that this ever became an issue.

Me, on the other hand, had to learn to face this every day. Sometimes I forget what life was like before Paula arrived in my life. It has been 16 years since I started my cute lil' squeaks that have helped me to grow so much. I don't know that shy little girl anymore. Now people are my favorite, and I love making new friends. I am able to talk to others easily and even enjoy public speaking. From hating attention to seeking opportunities to meet and help new people, Paula has changed my life.


Monday, January 21, 2019

Oh hey. It's been a minute. I have had a rough few months, so I haven't been able to write. That doesn't mean Paula sits idly by, though. Never you fear. As if I didn't have enough on my plate, she decides to suddenly take over and the sass levels were out of control. She has been doing so much talking back that she has even taken to interrupting ME! Not my favorite.

It doesn't matter who is speaking. She has sassed in the past month, not only me but my mother, my roommate, my coworkers, my boss, and several other friends in daily conversations.

The crazy thing is that it's actually pretty realistic to imagine her as a teenager. I first started ticcing 15 years ago. She actually is a teenager. Although a pretty unique one. I never would have gotten away with half the stuff she gets away with. All that sass and everyone just laughs at her. I would have been grounded for a month!

Some tics have all the luck...

Saturday, December 1, 2018

Well, so it's been a couple of months. They have been quite difficult for me, and it rarely had anything to do with Paula, so I just kind of disappeared. With all of the personal issues going on and that continues to happen, I wanted to take a second to, first of all, thank you for your patience and sticking with me. Secondly, I wanted to take a minute to stop and look back at how far I have come.

When I first started this blog, life was so drastically different. I was living in Hawaii, had just received an official diagnosis for my TS, though I had been living with it significantly longer than that. I had spent the semester studying Tourette Syndrome and how it affects communication, and I realized what a benefit it has been in my life and how much more I could do with it.

I don't think I would be facing everything in my life quite as well if I hadn't first figured out how to utilize awkward things. Awkward moments can be hard to deal with, but I feel like I've cracked the code. The same principles have crossed over into dealing with tragedy and fear. I am a better person and more capable of handling whatever comes my way thanks to my Tourette Syndrome. Even better, I can help others to do the same. I have been given a huge gift, not only personally, but professionally as well.

I have come a long way from that very first squeak in the public library my senior year of high school. I have come even farther since my diagnosis and study of Tourette's. I have come so far since publishing my first book. Even more in the last year that I have really given it more focus and attention. The things I have faced in the past two months may be difficult, but by the end of the year, I will have gone even farther and face an amazing 2019.

Many of you know how much I absolutely adore the New Year holiday. Yes, I have already started my celebration of it, even though we haven't really gotten through Christmas yet. All of the progress that I continue to make has been increasing in intensity and momentum. Which means 2019 is going to be out of control with its level of amazingness.

Because of my excitement, as well as because of the season, I want to share something with you. Part of the reason my year has been so amazing, despite everything that has happened, is because I have been studying with a mentor named Benjamin Hardy. He has created an online course called AMP. It stands for Accelerated Momentum Program.

Last year, I invested $1,000 to get in this course and it has been worth the money. The cost is the same this year, but here's the thing, I want to help other people succeed, too. This is a season for giving, reflection, excitement and new things. SO, I want to offer this course to you for half the price. If you are interested in joining me on my journey, rather than simply following along, if you are interested in changing the life you have, simply upgrading your abilities or just want to try something new, comment below, send me a message on Facebook, or send me an email at paula@paulajeanferri.com and I will get you the information. This is only valid while Ben is still taking applicants. It will likely end around the start of the new year.

Guys, I can't even tell you how much of a steal this is to get in for just $500. Totally promise it's worth it. In fact, I'm working on a project to toss in a few things of my own for you as well, so be sure to let me know if you are interested and I'll toss in a few extras to REALLY make it worth your while.

You are amazing. Sounds like a change of topic, but just know it's legit.
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