As Time Goes By

Time is a funny thing. I find it interesting how my life is suddenly in a place where I'm attending reunions for things I have done DECADES ago. Even talking with a friend of mine yesterday, I mentioned that my husband and I have been married for four years and she responded with, "No way, you two were just married." 

To which I emphatically agreed.

So to think it has been decades since I have done certain things in my life that feel like it was just a few years ago simply blows my mind. 

This weekend, I returned to one of my old college campuses (I transferred and attended 2 different schools). So much feels the same and so much feels so different.

There is a new library on campus. (I am DROOLING over this place!) As I walked the stacks, I couldn't help but be amazed at some of the amazing books that were here. Unfortunately, I didn't spend much time in the library. Now that I have a few decades on my younger self, I can't help but think I wasted my time.

Which is not true at all. College provided me with so much growth and expansion getting to know new people, discover new things about myself, learn how to make friends and socialize, and be more physically active than I had ever been before.

Fun fact, I lost the "freshman 15" my first semester, then lost another set my second semester.

This place was so good to me. I needed it and I loved it. But I can't help but wish I had done more. 

The cool part is that in 20 years... there is a chance that I'll be saying the same thing about my time now. Things I wish I had done before I had children and raised a family. Things that I wish I had done while I had more energy. Things that I simply want to do now.

I have no regrets about my past. Not at all. Even if it may sound like I do. It was exactly what I needed at the time. But the things that I wish I had done are actually things I want to do NOW. And that is something that I do have control over. 

It may not always be at THIS library. I would love that, my soul just wants to be there. But the concept is the same. Whether it is my local library, my personal library, or even a local bookstore. I want to be surrounded by books, either reading or writing in my journal, or even in front of my laptop. 

This is a time of focus I may not ever have again, especially when my husband and I start having children.

And I intend to enjoy every precious moment.