I can't even tell you how much better this week was from last week! Not that much changed circumstantially, but that I feel better and more capable of handling things. (Prayer works btw, I asked for prayers last week and I'm feeling them.) So thank you so, so much.

I feel much more calm and like I have a better idea of how things will play out. I feel supported and capable. It's a fantastic feeling. 

SO! With that in mind, we are moving forward! I have the first private room for the Reader's Escape/ book launch week sold, feel MUCH better about the Kickstarter campaign and am finally making progress on Madamn so things feel like they are coming together!

I hope I'll be able to report some amazing progress this week, since I'm feeling so much better. It helps that the sun will be shining all week with warm temperatures here, I absolutely function better with sunshine and warmth. 

So off I go! Keep those prayer coming, they are sustaining me!

Send Help!

This week was another crazy week at work, which meant most of the week was spent just recovering from my day to day job. 

Then I found a missing chapter in my novel. So I'm working on writing a new scene today. 

I'm starting to get a bit nervous about finishing this book on time. Especially with all of the other projects like the Kickstarter and preparing for the actual book launch. This is exactly what I was hoping to avoid when I set a deadline for the book being ready to print by December. 

Having a full time job, trying to run a household, and still try to grow my career as an author is really starting to take it's toll. I'm simply exhausted most of the time. I'm going to have to figure out how I can best balance all of the things and fast.

There was a meeting this week with a friend helping me to get things right with my Kickstarter, so there was at least a little bit of progress made this week, but right now, I'm living for the weekends to get things accomplished. 

So please send any and all prayers this week for me to have the energy and inspiration and focus to get things progressing. 

I'm Feelin' Good!

Happy Saturday friends!

While I made some good progress this week with edits (and finally sent the document to an editor- yay!), I also took a day off to completely just to relax and NOT have a strict plan to follow for maximum productivity.

I can't even tell you how good it felt. I feel like I finally have more energy and can absolutely plow through things today. And it's only Saturday! Yesterday felt so much like Saturday with all the running around I did!

Not only do I feel more rested, but I also feel like I'm figuring out my own health things, which is contributing to the energy I'm feeling. This week has been fantastic.

Even when I made a mistake at work and had to spend almost an entire day digging through old papers, I'm came out feeling like I had a great workout on my glutes, and wasn't emotionally ruffled, like I normally would have been. I can be so hard on myself when I've made a mistake, but I was just so unbothered by the whole experience.

It's only been a week on this new supplement I'm taking, but it's making a WORLD of difference. I've been taking it in conjunction with another supplement, which is about to run out, and will be the true test of how well it works. If I can use JUST this supplement and still feel this good, you can bet I'll be letting you know!

So that's my big update this week, stay tuned and there will be more fantastic updates next week!

Updated Images!

Happy Saturday friends! This week has been absolutely chaotic, but despite all the things, I managed to get some new scenes written and received the updated images for my characters. I love them!

Just look!!!

These make me so happy!

I can't even tell you how much these characters mean to me. I'm actually starting to get nervous about sharing their stories, because I want people to love them as much as I do. 

It has changed my life so much as I get to know them and have been writing this story. I'm glad that I've had the chance to go through this week and make so many good changes. There are just about 5 months left until the launch!

OH! And I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not, but the Paris trip is delayed...

The castle reached out and let me know that someone else wanted the entire chateau for the week I was looking at. If I wanted it, I would have to sign the lease and send a (quite large) deposit within 36 hours. And while I have had plenty of interest in the trip, I haven't had anyone pay yet, so we are going to postpone until next year.

But I figure that way people will have time to save for it and have a chance to read the book and love the characters as much as I do.

So we are still trying to figure out what the plan is for the launch party. It will involve a Reader's Escape, just maybe not something international. I will keep you posted, though.

Anyways, I'm going to get some more writing done, but I hope you have a marvelous week!

How Did This Week Even Happen?

Wow, I almost forgot to write an update today! Y'all this week has been insane. I can't believe we are already a week into March! It was spent trying to recover from getting sick last Saturday and getting back into "normal" life, which was ridiculously busy. 

Hopefully now we can have a bit more of a "normal" start to the month and keep things moving forward. Maybe. Today is already half gone and we lose an hour tomorrow, so, you know.

In case you couldn't tell, I'm starting to feel the pressure of the 5.5 months left to the book launch, especially where I have not yet started my Kickstarter campaign. 

Don't get sick, everyone, ok? Life turns into some kind of hot mess when you start feeling better. 

On the upside, I have been crazy productive today trying to do all the things. Writing done, Kickstarter updates discussed, living room cleaned, blog post up, about to send exclusive info to my email list...

Speaking of, if you aren't on there, you should be. You can do that over on my website.

Anywho, since there is so much going on, I'm going to keep it short. Maybe by next week I'll have more cohesive thoughts I can share!

Sad Week Updates

Hey there friends! This week has been kind of crazy for me. I'm writing this away from home, I am attending the funeral of a friend of mine. So there are plenty of distractions and today's post will be short. 

Sad update: I was contacted by the chateau and there is a large group wanting to book every single room the same week I want to be there. 

I had no paid guests and crickets when I asked for an update from people. I had no ability to pay the deposit required with the signing of the contract, so I bit the bullet and withdrew. Here's to hoping it can happen next year when I have some more dedicated fans of the novel and a bit more time to prepare. 

Meaning the book launch party will be moving to somewhere a bit more local. I'm not sure exactly where yet. I'll be sure to update you when I have more information, but know I'm working on still planning an amazing book launch party in August.

Since I already have the time scheduled off work, I will still do a reading retreat in connection with it. 

Again, I'll let you know when I have the info I need. But, at the same time since I'm no longer planning an international retreat, I'm feeling much better about being able to focus on actually finishing the novel since I'm behind schedule there.

So I made a whoops this week. I was all excited about some portraits I had commissioned of my characters from the novel. We had done some preliminary work and I thought I had received the final version. 

Tuns out, it was actually still a rough version. Which I learned when he sent final versions of Em and her sister. 

I had loved them before, but wow, I adore these updated versions! I don't have them all back yet, so in the meantime, here are the preliminary sketches I thought were the final versions. 

Silly me even printed them up and framed them! Anyway, I hope you enjoy, I've got to get to work on the Kickstarter!

I'm behind. I was hoping to launch that on the 25th after getting feedback from a group of authors who have run successful campaigns. So it will be more like the beginning of March. It's right around the corner, so I have to get my tail in gear!

So Many Updates!

Whoops, sorry I missed last week friends, I was working a craft fair. Usually, there is a bit of downtime and I'm able to still get the blog post up, but I was surprised at how busy this fair was! 

Especially considering the low foot traffic, but those that were there, we had some great conversations and opportunities come up. 

Good news, I was asked to speak to a local writing group! 

Also this week, things at work have been improving and I'm loving that. 

Then while in conversations this week with a friend who started a local book festival, I learned that she is taking a step back and there is now an opening on the local board. That board met yesterday and discussed me being a part of it and I was accepted!

I am not the newest member of the Bookmarked Literary Festival! So maybe I didn't need one more thing on my plate, but at the same time, I'm excited to get to volunteer thanks to a job that is supportive of the community. 

I also managed to finally figure out how to get my email list up and running, so I'm hoping to start making email updates more consistent. I sent one out recently, but today's email is going to be very special!

You see, I have commissioned art for Madamn and have portraits of 4 of the main characters. There will be a total of 7 scenes throughout the book with art illustrations.

My husband indirectly gave me the idea. You see, he bought a book from a local thrift shop with an inscription dated Christmas day 1872. This book had illustrations throughout in the following style:

The collector's edition of Madamn will have them colorized, while the regular editions will be black and white. 

If you would like to be on this list to receive early access to fun stuff like this, you can sign up HERE. 

Or you could keep your eyes peeled. I'll share them here eventually. 

For this coming week, I should have my Kickstarter up and running, so be sure to watch for that to go live as well. There will be all sorts of exclusive goodies available, so I recommend following and getting notified when that goes live. 

You can do that from this link HERE.

Life Cycles and Lessons

This week was a crazy one for me. After 2 incredible weekends that were incredibly productive, yet restful, the stress of this week has me completely lacking in motivation. 

It's not even that anything incredibly stressful happened at work this week, though it was incredibly stressful. It has more to do with relationships. They are so complex. I have one coworker in particular that is a struggle to work with. And what makes it even more complicated is I do genuinely like this person. 

Yet I find myself struggling to speak up around them, belittled by them, they complain about me to our boss... and now is going to become my boss. 

I'm happy for them. They absolutely have the know-how to do this job, it's the people skills I wonder about. 

Again, relationships are complex. 

Especially considering most of it is my own shortcomings. I have worked incredibly hard the past few months to become a better employee and to make sure I'm doing my job the best I can. I feel like I have made huge improvements. 

So the job is not the issue. 

The issue is my inability to stand up for myself. 

It has been a long standing issue of mine. I've actually come a long way there, too. 

However, life tends to work in cycles that always take us to a new level and can raise us to new heights if we are willing to put in the incredibly hard work. It would be so much easier if I were to just walk away.

I know I have that privilege and that capability. I've at least come that far in my life lessons. I have options. it took me a long time to stop feeling trapped and knowing that I am capable of finding another job and finding other ways to earn income. 

However, I also do legitimately enjoy the job I do and it has amazing perks and benefits. I want to stay. Which means I have to do the hard thing. I have to learn to speak up for myself. 

But boy, has that created some incredible emotional blocks and a lot of tears. My poor, supportive husband has been wonderful in all of this. 

And while I know what I need to do, actually doing the hard thing is another story. This is going to be a process. 

Because I don't have enough going on OUTSIDE of the job that is pushing me.

So we will see what happens.

The Thing About Momentum

I've noticed something this week about momentum. It's like a big rock rolling down a hill and it builds and picks up speed as you go when you are consistent.

I've made so much progress this week and I'm thrilled about how well things are moving. Not only did I get a bunch of writing/editing in this week, but I've been on a roll designing graphics to promote things, I've gotten some great feedback on my Kickstarter project, and most exciting of all, I've finally started working with the artist to create some character art!

There will also be about 7 illustrations that go into the novel itself. 

And in the deluxe edition, they will even be colored instead of in black and white. Things are starting to move along quite quickly and it's fascinating to watch. 

Since I've got all of this momentum, I'm going to use it. Short post today so I can start working on all the things! Have a marvelous week!

Things are Getting Real

This week has been a doozy. I was dealing with a bit of burnout first of all, so that was a struggle at first, but then, I noticed something that I want to do a bit more of a deep dive into, because it's very telling about where I am and where I'm headed.

My husband and I don't fight. We are both very good about talking about things that are bothering us and we discuss them. I did almost pick a fight this week. Not intentionally, mind you. I love my husband a lot. So when there were things that were bothering me, I pointed them out.

Except, in our discussion about why these things were bothering me and how I feared it would make us grow apart, he pointed out that this is something that *both* of us do, and if I didn't allow him this, it would be the thing that actually would drive us apart. 

He was right, as hard as it was to admit, but I am headed towards some big and exciting growth. Life is about to become even more wonderful, and if anyone has ever read The Big Leap,  you know that sometimes we think we can only handle so much happiness and we wait for the other shoe to drop. 

When it doesn't, we subconsciously decide to give it a bit of help and sabotage things. We thrive in the chaos. Somehow we have reached a point where we can't sit in peace and be comfortable. Because this 100% is not just me. 

It is me, especially in this instance. But it is also society as a whole. I totally recommend The Big Leap for anyone wanting to make big steps forward without losing the good things you already have. 

I want to have a family with my husband and know how wonderful he is, he had been the biggest support, but as I get closer to the launch of my big projects, I find myself more irritable towards him rather than leaning into his support. 

Not due to anything he has done, but my own fears that success with change things. But the truth is, it will only change what I let change. I can have my cake and eat it, too.

While we don't hear of them often, there are plenty of successful, even famous, couples who are happy together and stay together. I aspire to be one of them.

I've waited a long time for a relationship as wonderful as the one I have with my husband. I've put in a lot of work and waited a long time for all of my work to come to fruition. 

I'm ready for the next level. With my husband at my side.

The Castle!

What a week! After two weeks with holidays in the middle of them, to have a full work week was simply exhausting! But we made it and here we are! I have absolutely needed this break and am so excited to see what comes of today. It's early yet and I've already had a productive morning.

Highlight of the week, I got to take a virtual tour of the Chateau de Guermantes, which is absolutely stunning. I was given permission to use their photos on my website and socials, but I'm not sure if that includes the blog or not. However, you can see them all on their website as well.

Look at how stunning this place is! 

I can't wait to incorporate all of the details into my novel, but even more importantly, I'm thrilled beyond measure to be going there in August!

If you want to join me, I also finally managed to get the website finalized and you can check out the details here.

I fell a bit behind in a few other things due to some technical difficulties, but those are just about fixed as well. 

Hopefully this week will go by a bit more smoothly, and then I get an extra day off for Martin Luther King, Jr. Day on the 20th, so there will be lots of progress happening soon!

Be sure to follow along and keep an eye out for the details!

Welcome to 2025!

Whoo hoo, we are finally here! We are in 2025, where a lot of BIG dreams and plans are coming to fruition. I'm so excited for this year and have finally allowed myself to start working on something besides my novel.

Which, yes, Madamn still needs work. But I've started having so much fun building my Kickstarter campaign and planning and promoting my book launch/Reader's Escape in Paris. 

You can find the Kickstarter information HERE.

Information about the Paris trip can be found HERE.

I'm so freaking excited that things are finally happening! I'm feeling the pull of the momentum that has been building for years. It's beautiful to feel how excited Em is for her story to be told and finally shared. She is absolutely behind the momentum and it's a beautiful thing to watch.

So be sure to follow along, there will be big things happening during 2025 with no chance of slowing down. 

Also, my husband and I were finally able to celebrate Christmas this week. We had been sick, so the family time got delayed, but I have to share just how lucky I am to have such wonderful family that spoil me so much. 

My parents sent me a neck massager, which I have used pretty much every day since getting it. 

I received a yarn bowl and crochet hooks and blocking mats from my brother in law, his wife gave me looseleaf tea packets, a metal bookmark and page holder.  

My father in law got me a book and wool slippers, while my mother in law gave me socks and a lap desk with a pillow on the bottom. 

My husband gave me a LOT of chocolate and a collector's edition of Madame Bovary. It's SO beautiful and I'm excited to read it. 

The gift that shocked me the most was from my other brother in law who gave me a thermal printer, paper and a cover/carrying case. This thing is so space efficient, which is awesome for my tiny apartment and doesn't require ink cartridges. It works so well, too! 

Anyways, I hope you were as spoiled as I was during the holidays and wishing you a very Happy New Year!