Reality Sets In

Sunday, July 24, 2016

So this is going to just be a fast post, I wanted to touch base and let you know first of all, why I have not been posting as much and secondly the exciting news!

As many of you know I am working on publishing a book. This is taking a lot more time than I anticipated and is a project I have essentially been working on for 4 years now! About a year ago I knuckled down to really follow through and holy time consumer batman! I'm proud that I have been able to still keep up fairly well, but the last few weeks have certainly seen a dip in posts. Why?


Well, assuming all comes together like it should. I just got the full manuscript back from my editor and there are still a few things I need to tweak, then formatting and it. Is. DONE! I will try to keep up on Paula's antics, but if I'm MIA, at least you know why!


Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Paula doesn't whisper. Then again, this post really isn't about Paula. Not directly, anyways. A few weeks ago I was sitting in church. The building was incredibly quiet and the atmosphere pensive. Paula, doing her usual attention grabbing thing, jumped out. Not just once, a few times and nice and loud. My favorite part was the whispers that followed.

"She has Tourette Syndrome." "It's Tourette's." "Oh, that happens, her Tourette Syndrome is great!"

I'm sure there were more conversations that followed. If not, there might have been more research. I love the awareness that Paula spreads for herself. Best of all, that due to awareness she has already spread, others now get to help in this endeavor and can now answer questions. If they don't know the answer, the know where to to get it.

It's funny, I have heard people with Tourette Syndrome say that the worst part about TS, is the people that don't have it. However, I'm kind of a fan of my ability to be different and share and sometimes, even educate others on what it is and how it affects me.

These whispers bring joy to my heart that others can do the same. Share the love, people.

Paula is a Flirt

Friday, July 15, 2016

I have started another new tic. It's not even a new vocal tic, it is a physical one. The best part is, it's not even one that hurts! It was actually kind of subtle at first, I don't really know when it started, but I am noticing it happening more and more. Especially around large groups of people. It is also certainly a happy tic. In fact, it's the most flirty tic I have. I think Paula might be better at this dating thing than I am!

She has started winking! Oh I wink once in a while, but not as often as I find myself doing it now. I mostly started to notice this was a new tic when I did all alone one day. I may or may not have been thinking about a conversation I had the day before with a cute guy, but that certainly does not merit winking all alone now does it? I'm pretty sure this is a tic. I'm not too upset about this one though! I certainly plan to take advantage of it!

Paula Takes Care of Me

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Sometimes I wonder if she doesn't see things better than I do. It's not hard, I've had glasses since I was in 5th grade. Except I don't mean that kind of seeing. She recognizes patterns in my life and helps me to see what is going on. Sometimes a little better than I can. It's kind of nice having a gauge of what is going on internally when I am not paying attention.

I am a big advocate of mental health, especially given some of the things I have experienced in my life. I have been very blessed to have such wonderful people help me to regain my footing and get back into stable territory. Those experiences have been slightly traumatic though, and very easy to see when things are going wrong and that I need help. Who wouldn't have a hard time breaking off an engagement for example? Even if you haven't broken off an engagement, life still gets stressful. Stress greatly affects our mental health and it needs to be taken care of and watched just as much as our physical health.

Lucky me, I have a stress-o-meter. When I get stressed and need to take a step back, I usually would try to plow through and get things done anyways. Paula won't stand for it. She cares about me apparently and when I get stressed, tics increase, making it necessary for me to stop and take that step back I mentioned I never take. It will either be by the pain caused from physically ticcing so much, so she might physically not let me touch the mouse at work. (She did this the other day. The keyboard was ok, but no mouse!) I certainly appreciate her thoughtfulness and consideration of my mental health.

Paula Is a Schemer!

Friday, July 8, 2016

Paula can border on being a jerk sometimes! I think she secretly makes plans to creep people out. She doesn't even let me in on the secret when she does it either. I guess it makes me a bit of a jerk that I laugh when she does it though. I"m not necessarily always laughing at the other person. Maybe once in a while. Mostly I am laughing at what  brat Paula is. So cheeky that one!

This morning at work, Paula screamed. My co worker that sits behind me must have jumped, though I didn't see it. She did, however, turn around and say, "Oh my goodness, you scared me!" Before I could do anything, Paula jumped in and gave her two cents. "I know!" Oh, I just about died laughing. Not at my poor co worker, but of this bratty side of me. I promise, I don't plan it!

Paula's Interruptions

Thursday, July 7, 2016

I have been terrible at posting lately, but it's only because things are moving along so well with my book! It should be out within a month you guys! I am so excited, and have been working furiously on my book description and tweaking the back cover and dimensions and all sorts of things I had no idea were involved in the book writing process! Especially since most of the book is with my phenomenal editor.

Don't let that fool you though, Paula is still up to her antics. She must be getting a bit impatient for the book release or something. Usually she is very polite and waits until I finish talking or doing something to show up. Lately, she has been jumping in whenever she darn well pleases. I understand this is more typical in the TS community and Paula is unique, but I miss my polite little Paula! Yesterday at work she wouldn't let me touch the mouse. My shoulder would jerk anytime I got close. I could use the keyboard, but no clicking for Jessica. Granted I had been a little stressed out, so she was a little more aggravated than usual. I wasn't able to get much work done until I took a break and calmed down a bit though. She can just be so cheeky when she wants attention!

Paula Can Be Quiet

Friday, July 1, 2016

Paula has been very active the past few months. There has been so much going on in my life, and she has loved the excitement and attention. There have been lots of blog posts to share that as well. This past week has been kind of quiet though. Not only has it been a quiet calendar, but Paula has be quiet as well. I find myself missing her. She makes my life much more entertaining. My life suddenly feels so empty without five or six new stories per day.

Oh sure, Paula sang "Final Countdown" at work today, but we already know she is a singer. And that was almost her only appearance. She wasn't around to make me smile with her antics. We already knew she loves people and gets pretty vocal when I am excited and happy... Which begs the question... do I have no stories because Paula isn't around, or is Paula around because I have no stories? Maybe I should be making a few more changes in my life... little more sociality or something!
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